I don't actually have to wait until the 11th to leave work, I quit today. I broke down, in front of customers, and went and stood in the walk in freezer. MY favorite boss was there and had to come get me out of there. Tears were basically frozen to my cheek for however long I'd been there. He took me into the office and explain how I needed to get ahold of myself or clock out and not come back. I stood there for god knows how long fighting my thoughts. "should I stay or pull it through the next 11 days?" I finally agreed that I'd clock out and go home, never coming back. I'll miss them all, or at least most of them. I'll miss my boss, who tried his best to keep me there. I have him added on my xbox since there was no rule against that.

The next few weeks bring either things I can acomplish or fail at. I want to at least try. I don't even know if I'm enrolled in school anymore. I need to go talk to them about that….if so then each day I'll go and try to work on school stuff. I want to go early, so I can have the rest of my day to myself.

I think after school I would like to start going to the gym. Our hospital offers gym member ships and yoga classes….I want to be there for that. I want to do that. Lose weight. You have to be sexy if you want to be a tatted rock star! lol…

I haven't been eating all that correctly. It's either way to much or not at all. I'll go check all that out tomorrow….and we'll see how it goes. I'm really hopeful for all this. I don't want it to be random air coming out of my mouth. I want to try.