When you see me what do you see?  Do you see HIV?  When you see me, do you see the pain in me.  When you see me do you know what i feel. 

When you see me can you tell i'am HIV?  When you see me just let me be? 

When you see me Love me,  When you see me DONT LOOK AT MY HIV?  When you see me make me feel like me.

Just trying to voice a little bit about how i feel.  When i walk down the street i wonder what people see.  Sometimes i feel people see me and know iam hiv poz.  I know this isnt the case,but never the less i feel so open.  I feel people can look right through me.  I've been going threw a rough time this last couple of weeks.  Sure i thank god for letting me see another day.  But i feel so alone.  I have really no support, I have no time to go to some kind of therepy, or group sessions ,because i found a job.  But  Iam just at my wits end.  I just want  me back.  The person who didnt worry about life.  Wondering if i will live to see my grandchildren grow up.  I so tired of this so called diease that they wont do anything about.  If the can give us meds.  to keep this virus tammed what about just killing it all together.  Sometimes i think it is these companies and the goverment looking for profit and not getting people with hiv, aids, cancer,and other diease the cure.  Hell why cure us when there are billions to be made.   These are just my thoughts.