The pain. It’s still there. My head…no…the demons in my head. They scream every second of every day and don’t stop. Won’t stop. My soul…or whatever soul I have…it is being ripped apart at all times. My lungs work but I can’t breath. My body functions, but I can’t stop shivering. My brain is running but my thoughts are stuck. How did this happen to me. When did I commit a sin so vile that I deserve to live like this?

Oh shit…..Maybe that’s it.

Maybe I’m not supposed to keep living. Maybe the universe is giving me a sign to just stop existing. Maybe I should just go enjoy the view from my favorite bridge…and the view as I jump from it. Maybe that’s what I need.

I am listening now universe. Help me end the pain