Where does the time go? I feel like ever since I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety, time just flies by. An anxiety attack feels like it lasts forever and when I look at the clock, it’s been two hours. How did I not notice that I was freaking out for two hours? I feel like my family is sick of hearing my bullshit. (They call my problems bullshit) so I decided not to tell them about it anymore, which makes me feel more alone. My boyfriend tries to help me but I can tell he is slowly giving up on me cause nothing is working. I don’t want him to feel useless or like this is his fault but I cannot dwell on everything because I need to focus on getting myself better. I feel so stuck, not being able to smoke weed cause it increases my anxiety I’ve been smoking more ciggs. I tried to go and smoke one but I realized how dark it was on my street, then the anxiety kicked in. “What if I got lost? Even though my home is right here and I haven’t left? What if it was just dark enough i couldn’t see and someone hurts me? What if the world stays this dark, what will become of me?” No, I’m not scared of the dark, I normally sit in the dark in my room. Why did this happen? Why can’t anyone help me figure out why I am like this? I hope this isn’t the rest of my life because this isn’t life. I had such big dreams when I was younger.. I wanted to be a pastry chef, but I can’t even be around food without feeling sick. Let alone working is hard as hell on me, I don’t think I can take anymore stress. I want to love my life again, I hate feeling scared all the time.
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Frustated.
CeruleanKisses, , Anxiety, Relationships, 0
I'm really just frustrated and upset. I have to leave in about 10 minutes or so and make my...
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February 5th 2016
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Damn Usual Frustration
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OK, now I am just plain pissed at myself! First off, I am not understanding why this is coming...
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Chainsaw Fetish
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Friends, I’m going to be a little open and vaunerable here… I have a sexual attaction to women with...
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Crappy Day… But, I Deleted My Facebook And Myspace Accounts!!!
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So, I am pretty peaceful right now, because I finally deleted my Facebook and Myspace accounts. This is something...
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A mixture of my mind!..
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Decided i'm going to try and write more regular blogs now after my kind responders last time 🙂 and...
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Logged on
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i wish i never got this laptop, i thought it would help with my homework… get my mind off...
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Scared
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