HI!

I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT I AM FEELING ANYMORE.  I FEEL THAT I AM TOTALLY SANE, BUT THEN WHEN IT COMES TO LITTLE SITUATIONS IN LIFE…I DONT COPE VERY WELL.  I FEEL LIKE JUST THROWING IN THE TOWEL AND CALLING IT QUITS!  SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA BALL UP IN A CORNER AND CRY!  SOMETIMES I WANNA KICK THE ASS OF THE FIRST PERSON WHO STARES AT ME STRANGELY!  I FEEL LIKE KUJO SOMETIMES.  I DONT EVEN WANNA HEAR A PIN DROP…AND IF I DO, IT IRRITATES THE HELL OUT OF ME.  I HAVE BEEN CALLED 'CRAZY' BY SOMEONE WHO MEANS ALOT TO ME.  I'VE BEEN WONDERING…SHOULD I CONSIDER THAT?  OR SHOULD I JUST TELL THEM TO GO TO HELL BECAUSE YA GOTTA BE A LITTLE CRAZY IN THIS WORLD TO SURVIVE ALL THE CRAZY SHIT THAT IS GOING ON.  I AM LIVING A FUNCTIONAL LIFE, BUT STILL IT FEELS LIKE SOMETHING IS MISSING.  I DONT HAVE HAPPINESS INSIDE.  I DONT FEEL LIKE I AM ACCEPTED BY THE WORLD IN THE WAY THAT I WANNA BE ACCEPTED.  I KNOW THAT HAPPINESS STARTS FROM WITHIN, BUT DAMN…HOW FAR AND DEEP DOES A BITCH HAVE TO GO TO FIND IT?  LOL  I ALWAYS SEE THOSE GIRLS WHO APPEAR TO BE HAPPY WITH ALOT OF FRIENDS AND SHIT, BUT I FEEL LIKE I DONT NEED ALL THAT DRAMA.  I LIKE FEW FRIENDS SO THAT I CAN KEEP A GOOD EYE ON THEM.  I DONT TRUST FOLKS, YA KNOW!  IT IS HARD TO PUT YOUR TRUST IN PEOPLE WHO ARE SO UNPREDICTABLE!  I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS OUT TO GET A BITCH! 

TO BE CONTINUED…