I feel liek i'm too young to be depressed. I mean, I understand that lots of people are depressed and feel the way that I do, but how many of them are 20? I just feel like I should be like everyone else and be having fun but instead I'm trying to identify why I feel the way I feel. I feel like I'm wasting my life away, and even though I do have time to turn my life around, I wonder how long that's going to take, cuz I wanna be able to enjoy life while I'm young, but I don't know if that'll happen with the way I've been feeling lately. I see no purpose to life, and I'm the kind of person that needs a purpose to do something, so instead I lay around all the time and do NOTHING! I love you all here on DT because you support me and you understand, but when it comes to the people that are actually around me none of them understand me and they don't want to support me cuz they think I'm angry. I am angry. It's pretty much the only emotion I feel, but it isn't like I'm angry at them, I'm just angry at myself. I want to have fun, but it's almost as if I don't know how. How can someone tell me there's nothing wrong with me when I don't even know how to have fun? I'm so tired of sleeping all day and staying up all night, but I don't have the courage to do it. Why? Because I care wayyy too much about what people think of me. I wish there was some words of inspiration or insight that I could give you people tonight, but honestly I don't have enough energy to think of anything happy 🙁