She HATE’s this person she has become
for the obstacles she can’t overcome
this person who no longer sees
the goals she had set to achieve
She keeps the fake smile on her face
so others will be comfortable in her space
She no longer wishes to be the help line of one another
for she feels she has failed as a wife and mother
Why does this pain run so deep within her skin
Why is it a battle she can’t win
Why must she portray to others she is okay
when she really would like to fade away
she has lost her strength to fight for happiness
when she knows she deserves only less
Why then must she go on pretending she is saine
so the ones around her don’t know or feel her pain
to watch them smile when she says she is great
yet again they take the bait
the false pretense is just a show
if only they would really know
how the feelings inside her have become too much to take
and the feelings she gives them are always fake
the liar she has made herself to be
for some are to tender to wanna see
She is losing control of all
and she sits and waits on gods call
to let her no why she’s still here
for there’s nothing left in her to care
and the peices that remain
are tainted and stained
why should she stay here
all it does is cause more fear
losing everything she’s work so hard to keep
her dreams, her goals, her plans now seem so steep
and her tired legs can no longer climb and claw
for above lay things she will miss most of all
her daughter, her husband, her family, and friends
these people who try yet are not able to make ammends
the torment she feels everyday and night
she wishes she could see the light
to see what god ‘s plans ahead lay
for the person before her now
is not the one who might somehow
change this world into a better place
where people need not put on a false face
and be free to share thier true feelings
and begin the procces of healings
why is it we have to hide the torments inside
so society can go on bye and say well we tried
feeding us more pills increasing our bills
then putting us in places they see fit
for yet another lunatic
She ‘s so tired of fighting for her sanity
she relises it may never be
when society says they wanna help us feeding us lies
making it for some thier last goodbyes
is there really no one in the world to help us see
or are we truely the lab rats they experiment on when time be
she grows angry at the systems of our society
hiding us away so we won’t stray
for it is forbidden to talk about the pills they feed us so they can make a buck
while we continue to lay in misery and muck
but what ‘s it to them another bill in thier wallet
while we shake and shiver from the side affects of the pills they so called it
she still wishes to fight if not for her but her offsprings
she wants them to have so many things
Let them know thier mouths are thier tool to fight
that they no whats wrong from right
and give a smile of success
when they do not allow society to make them into statistic little test
may they not label my child average and normal as statistics show
may she be herself only her true talents she bestow
not to be scrutinized or labeled
but to be free to follow her fairy tale fable
So WHY? I ask should we fight instead of being defeated
for the children below us
who will one day show us
this world is all we can leave them so we must fight
to make sure all will be right
that are kids will have knowledge to improve on these things
so ones that follow after them will have the strenght to fight
the demons that will always stay and torture them
we must give then the knowledge to stand there ground
and never let this society conform them and push them around
For these children will one day be our future
and she hopes they can say thier proud to stay
in a place they are all free to be
and where people don’t judge them and see
what beautiful individuals they become
able to express thier true feelings
and not be so numb