Some days are better than others. I’ve realized I don’t like talking about my problems or feeling with people that I know. They either change it so it focuses on them or they don’t really understand. There is no one that I know of that can just listen and be there for me.
I am married. Not an abusive relationship. Just annoying. I do my best to do everything and anything, but get bitched at for something I forgot. I am a stay at home mom right now, which is not fun. Don’t get me wrong, I love my son. I love hanging out with him, but the only enjoyment I get by myself is going to the grocery store and even that is a chore. When I do go hang out with friends, it’s just not the same as it use to be. And they all have drama that I do not want to be apart of.
Being married is something I never wanted. I can’t believe I even did get married. I like my freedom. I don’t like getting in stupid fights with someone all the time. It’s annoying and a waste of time. Relationships are annoying.
I just want someone to talk to. Someone I don’t know. Someone who can’t judge me or hold anything I say over my head. I don’t want to talk to a therapist because I don’t want people to ask me why I am depressed. They think I have a perfect life because I am married and have a kid. It’s weird to have anyone think that about me. Happiness isn’t having people surrounding you. Sometimes to many people around you can drive you crazy.
Well that is all that is on my mind right now. Just thought I should start the blog.