Pseudotumor Cerebri….I know that is a big word but let me start from the beginning. I had suffer with migraines in silence for the 8 months before seeing any one for it. Finally in April I was given meds to control them. I was feeling some what better, but they have increased my meds a lot. I know that I must do I can to control the migraines, so knowing that one of my triggers is direct sun light. I was off to the eye doctor to get sunglasses to help with that. Well the eye doctor tells me that my eye are doing okay and my prescription had not changed much. He was happy that my eye astigmatism was getting better . With glasses and sunglasses in hand. I thought my life would be okay. A couple days later I started having trouble seeing out of my left eye. I felt like I did not have a lens in my glasses and I went in to the eye glass place that is next door to the doctor office. They checked it and said that things where okay, but that they would make the lens over to make me feel better. I pick up the glasses two days later. Still had problems, and them I devopled a new problem on top of that. I started to have pain behind the eye. Well it's been a month now with the glasses with lost of my vision and pain that has come and gone. I have thought that it has been my migraines all long. But never had these symptoms before. I finally told my husband about 5 days ago. He is worried out of his mind.
Then this Thursday night I could not see at all out of the eye and I went to bed, ten mintues later the pain started. I was thinking migraines so I took my meds. It did not help, when morning can. I called the doctor and was seen that afternoon. She increased my meds and a shot of Tramadol. I was sent home to rest and I kept waiting for the stuiped tramadol to kick in, but NO.. I talk to my bosses that are doctors that night. Which are going out of state for the Thanksgiving week. Well my female boss tells me that I'm showing symptoms of Pseudotumor Cerebri and that I need to be seen the ER. So that they can do a lumbar puncture. Well the doctor thinks that I have Pseudotumor Cerebri and I do need one, but since my anxiety is so high and he has not done many. I'm sent home with pain killers for the time being. I go back to my doctor, eye doctor and make other appointments to precessed to have this matter taken care of on Monday..
Here a site to check out
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Idiopathic_intracranial_hypertension
My anxiety is go high at the moment that ready to die. I just need some one to listen to me. I'm depressed cause I can't see much and this has taken all my streght to write this with one good eye. I'm at my end of my rope with every thing. I just need some thing to hang onto at the moment. Traffic looks good to stand in and life looks so dim.
I was wondering why no one had not comment on my blog and then I realized that I had set my self up to fail. I had set up it up for only friend to respond to my blog. What a screw ball that I have be come.
I hate my self. I cry out for help and I can't get it cause I'm so stuipd. What a dumb F**k I have became.