Hello. I have been having a really bad time lately for the past 25 + days. I moved into my new residence hall on August 1 for my third year of college. Last year I had really bad anxiety attacks and mild depression. This past spring quarter, I was doing really really well. Only mild anxiety here and there but nothing that was bothersome to my daily life. Over the summer, I was also doing pretty well. Then it was time to move in and start the new year. I was initially really excited because of my leadership position on campus, my new office assistant job, and the fact that I was rooming with my best friend. Then I got to school and it was a whole new story. I have had really bad anxiety and depression, that just keeps getting worse and worse. I don't understand why it is happening. I can't function, I can't go to class, I can't eat. I am really skinny to begin with so the eating is a huge problem. I had to come home last night because I was so bad. I am scared of myself, scared to be alone. I can't be left alone with my thougths. I don't know what to do. I can't go back to school, or work, but I am scared to tell anyone. What the hell should I do? I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep until it all goes away, but in my head, I don't think it will ever go away. 25 + days is a long spell of anxiety and depression. Pleaes tell me what you think. I just need to hear things. I need adivce and comfort. I am safe right now at home so don't worry. But what am I supposed to do about school. I am a failure if I have to drop out. Help me please.

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  1. Chantale 8 years ago

    Hi there,

    I\'m sorry you are having a difficult time. I really feel for you. 25 days is a long time. What is very impressive is that you realized you were having a hard time and instead of trying to hide it and pretend everything was alright you made the right decision to go home where you feel safe. That\'s okay and please do not think of yourself as a failure, because you are not…more importantly, you are not alone. I believe that if you have been able to work through everything in the past, you will be able to do it again. Personally, I think you have too much going on…leadership on campus, your job and school. You may have to give something up. That\'s alot of responsibility for one person. It\'s no wonder you are feeling anxious. Breath and think about what you can do to return to school. See what you can give up. I wish you well. Take care.

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  2. cmreeb 8 years ago

    Hello, I understand exactly what you are going through.

    During highschool i had some anxiety, but it was never as bad as it was once i moved away to attgend college. I used to call home crying every night, and my mother would have to calm me down. I survived my first year, but my second year away was complete hell. Exactly like you, i was afraid to be alone with my thoughts, i ws anxious all the time, had alot of trouble concentrating and doing homework. It got so bad that i dropped out during my last semester of college. I felt ashamed, and worthless. But eventually i realised that when ou need a break, you need a break, and to seek help when things get relly bad. Thats exactly what i did, i went home, sought help from my doctor, and started feeling better. I just recently finished my program online from home, and am attending my graduation in October.

    So don\'t be afraid to bail out of life for a while if you need to. Eventually, when your ready, and if your determined, you will finish what you started.

    Hope this helps.

    Christina

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