I have been living with anxiety for the majority of my life. I never knew what it was when I was young, but knowing now… I can look back and say for sure the feelings I was so scared of as a child, we anxiety.
I've never written a blog before, and I am not sure what to expect, or even what to type. So, I suppose I could write about what brought me here. A month ago, I had the worst anxiety/panic attack I have ever had in my life. I have never been so scared, and all I could think of was "Dear God, please dont take me from my Little Girl". I felt like I was dying. I couldnt breathe, my throat was tight… my chest hurt, my head even tingled. It lasted forever too, so I went to the emergency room. I had never been treated for anxiety before, and they prescribed Ativan. I am very grateful to them.
Since then, I went to the Dr. and was prescribed celexa, using 20mg a day with 1 or 2 mgs of Ativan. I feel pretty good now. I have had a couple mild attacks, but nothing like they were before.
The last couple years have been very hard for me. Well, 3 years to be honest. 3 years ago, I found out I was married to a drug addict. "How couldshe not know?" you're probably asking yourselves… easily, we worked opposite shifts, and when he got home, I was in bed. He spent our house payments on drugs and told me he paid them. We were foreclosed on. Our daughter was 6 months old at this time, and she and I moved home with my parents. He went through treatment and there was talk from time to time about us working things out for our daughters' sake.
I think this is enough for now… I will pick up where I left off tonight or tomorrow. Hope I didnt bore you too much. Take care, and have a great night.