I slept in my bra.  Ack…  so uncomfortable…  taking that thing off at night’s end is one of life’s little pleasures – a release of tension, and a freeing feeling, really (haha).  Since I fell asleep without that feeliing, I am going to go braless today, haha.  Why the hell not?  Damn nazi torture contraptions…

"So needless to say
I’m odds and ends
But that’s me, stumbling away
Slowly learning that life is okay.
Say after me:
It’s no better to be safe than sorry"

so my little nephew will be in town Friday.  My mom wants me to come out to her place Thursday, and ride here with him Friday, so she won’t have to.  She should not have made these plans if she can’t keep the, because I am not yet well enough to travel – she knows this (not why – she thinks it’s my stomach condition flaring up, but she knows I don’t travel at this time).  I want to see him when he’s in the city, but a trip to Wisconsin is probably out of the question.

Quinn’s band is playing in less than a week.  I am not going.  Ben will be there, but I can see him elsewhere.  Quinn and I should not cross paths.  He’s been nothing but a punk to me since the fit hit the shan, so, why rock the boat, to see him?  If I went to that show, Charlie would smell it a mi away, and that wouldn’t be worth the ensuing drama.  Not for someone who acts like he doesn’t even care – like we’re not even friends, anymore, or something…  if that’s how he wants it, to hell with him.  We’ll talk again, someday – I’ll catch up with him in the ninth ring of hell, where we both belong.

I said hey to Ace this morning.  He’s back at work after a nasty illness.

And, I am now officially running behind.

"You’re all the things I’ve got to
remember
You’re shying away
I’ll be coming for you anyway

Take on me, take me on
I’ll be gone
In a day or two" ("Take On Me," A-Ha)

Thank God, there are people I can actually count on.  Yesterday would’ve been heroin 1, me 0, if not for the people who care about me.  Thinking about Ace….  calling Jordan…  these are the things that saved my ass.

Anyway, need to try to fix my pc today.  Fun, fun, fun…  if I can’t, I need to take it in.  That would SUCK like nobody’s business.  Need to finish backing up all my files…

Want to work on my photography sh*t today, and my play.  Want to clean, too…  I want to do everything – of course I do, I am manic.  I have delusions of grandeur and hit, haha.  Anyway, shower time…  (or-putz-around-smoking-until-I-have-to-leave-stinky time)  All apologies for this blog.  I will try to write something more interesting, later.