I slept late and when I went to my class tonight it was a very long class. I had a test that went terrible. got a paper back that i got a 90 on, but she completely tore it apart and told me it was poorly written. so naturally i felt that she gave me a 90 because she feels bad for me because i am so obviously inept at school and i shouldn't be there. i am going to school for psychology for God's sake. who am i kidding? i can't even talk to anyone. how am i going to counsel anyone? sometimes i can be good and talk and articulate, but thats rare. i don't think i'll be able to keep a job after i graduate. i don't think i can handle grad school. i'm pretty sure i will be on disability my whole life. i hate my life right now. i hate that i go days without talking to people it makes me want to scream. i'll talk to my son of course, but sometimes during the week, especially when my bf works, i don't talk to a soul for days unless its my bf. and when i talk to him its nota lot. because i am that quiet. i don't know how he deals with me. i love him so much and i don't want him to leave. i can't lose him like those others. i can't put my son through the loss of another man in my life. i can't go to school tomorrow. i don't need to, but i should just to do something. i don't know what to do with myself, but i don't want to do anything. is this my social anxiety? my ptsd? what the fuck. i hate life right now.
-
Checking in with my feelings
gabi.jp7, , Anxiety, Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar, Career, Depression, Suicide, 0
It’s definitely been extremely difficult for me lately. I’ve dealt with depression since I was 14 and at 18...
-
This is ruining my life
TwistedxKiss, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Stress, Therapy, 0
Okay, first you need a little background. I had the predisposition for anxiety, and two years ago I had...
-
Wound that will never heal
sonne63, , Anxiety, Depression, Relationships, 0
Good evening, Tribers. Music stirs up my emotions, and I was listening to "Waltzing Matilda" by Tom Waits (it's...
-
The inescapable forks in the road
patrick2009, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Depression, Grief, Religion, 0
I am walking on a road in bare feet. The road is filled with broken glass and rusty nails...
-
Personality Type & Mental Health
Emotions, , Anxiety, Depression, Anxiety, Depression, OCD, Personality Disorder, Stress, Weight Loss, 0
As my journey into maintaining mental health continues, I can’t help but wonder about the link between Personalities and...
-
Losing it for sure
catrek, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Medication, Questions, Religion, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, Therapy, 0
I posted this on my myspace blog for my friends only but I thought some people here might be...
-
Quit Creeping up
Katymyster24, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Relationships, Self Esteem, Sleep Disorders, 0
Haven't had anxiety for a while, but the other night, I had a horrible dream. I woke up in...
-
What is going on?
Randombee, , Anxiety, Depression, Teens, Anxiety, Depression, Therapist, Therapy, 0
Before reading here is my blog site again if you want to visit if not that’s fine you:...