Well it has been a long time since I have been on here. About 2 years. Things in my life have changed significantly. I have had a recent diagnosis of Bipolar instead of depression. I have had many med changes too since I have been on here last. Hopefully this will be the last med change cause it is getting kind of old having to get blood test after blood test and going through different side effects. Can't take much more of the side effects. Well right now they have me on Lithium and SeroquelXR. I have been on the SeroquelXR for about a year now and the Lithium I have only been taking for the last 2 weeks. I have just recently gotten over some of the side effects so that makes me happy. Last year I had 3 jobs, all of which were good, but the OCD started to kick in and I had to quit. I have no been jobless since the beginning of October 09. Sitting at home and isolating myself from the entire world. I feel real bad for my husband cause he takes the brunt of my severe mood swings. Like on Saturday I got mad at the vacuum cause the hose was not sucking properly and I threw it out of the bedroom and into the hallway. It is the stupid little stuff that really sets me off for some reason. I just do not know how to control the anger. I do not leave my house cause I ma embarrassed too. I have gained some weight since I have been taking the SeroquelXR (maybe because it knocks me on my @ss). I could sleep forever on that!! As of now, I am okay today. I did get out of bed, which is amazing for me anymore. I was able to do some dishes and get a shower. Just doing simple stuff makes me soooo tired and worn out. My house is a mess because of this. I just feel lazy, but I know that I cannot help it. Oh well, until tomorrow I guess!! Dog The Bounty Hunter is coming on and I cannot miss that!! HUGS to all!!!
Welcome Back!!
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Part of my literary novel
eli1, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Psychosis, 0
Leon was feeling so detached from reality and extremely psychotic. His reality tested was totally out of touch. Leon...
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So i did
sadjac, , Depression, 0
I managed to bow into pressure and go out for dinner. It was just my sister, mother, grandparents and...
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Jibber jabber jibberish
sadjac, , Depression, Addiction, Sleep Disorders, 0
Tuesdays.. I like Tuesdays. I have no classes on Tuesdays. Well I got well and truely hammerd last night....
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I don''t need it…because I can''t feel it
redhead20, , Depression, Depression, Questions, Religion, Self Esteem, Sleep Disorders, 1
Make steps. Accept circumstances. Let it out, write it down. Swallow it down and try not to puke it...
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tired of everything 2
CalmEagle, , Depression, 0
Sick of trying to be “the perfect daughter”, sick of trying to get my grades up, tired of constantly...
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Bullshit
soullessbvblover, , Depression, Sleep Disorders, 0
we're all alone in the end. really, we're alone from the very start we just didn't know it yet....
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Still can't function
snowdreamer, , Depression, 0
Ok it's day 7 of my flare now and it's made it's way double time into my neck and...
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At a loss
Blissful_Madness, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Career, Religion, 0
Today was my first day back to work since my last fall in January. I did the secretary role...

