This post is in dedication my wonderful girlfriend who feel needs some appreciation for how much she's done for me, but first let me tell you abit about our story so far.

Most love stories are so generic in the modern day and age, they often need on Facebook and hit it off from there- and there's nothing wrong with that don't get me wrong but I feel that is a bit wrong, you should be out meeting people and making connections in the real world. So basically, the girl I'm with went to the same school as me, Shes the year below, and our paths never crossed once throughout the whole highschool life, including sixth form- until one day this petite brunette with a smile that could light the darkest of rooms walked in to my workplace to start the first day of her new job, around 7 months ago.

The moment she walked in my life was to change for the better, the little things she would do just made me instantly think she was amazing, her nervousness when she was around me was adorable, she'd never look me in the eye and would only ever give me a quick "hi" combined with the cutest smile known to man, before clocking in to start her shift.

It all started one Friday night,we were on the same shift at work and I remember being busy with a few jobs and she walked past, in her little uniform with her usual nervous smile and I just took one glance and thought to myself "one day she will be mine", and damn right she would be.

I was in a relationship at the time, and I'd never in a million years advocate having eyes for someone else whilst in a relationship- but as stated in a previous blog my ex was toxic, she made me feel worthless 24/7 and all I ever wanted was to escape from that life, this new mysterious girl was my life line, she was a breath of fresh air and an opportunity I couldn't pass up on.

In March she was having a gathering for her birthday and iattended as I was so excited to get to know her better, we never said more than a few words to each other- I remember always trying to get her to sing but she would just laugh and shake her head as if j was a maniac blasting Justin bieber out at the top of my lungs ( it was on the radio okay👀). Anyways, we hit it off instantly and j could tell we would get on great, we shared a few cheeky kisses on the sofa and I promised j would take her out the following weekend, but I let her down big style.

I disappeared for two weeks, completely out of the blue to her and she never even got an explanation from me, I just shot up and left her, granted I eventually told her why I did that a few weeks back but it was still a shit thing for me to do. See, I was in a bad frame of mind at this point in time, I had just dropped out of uni as my mind was in overdrive, I had just left my new job and was at rock bottom, Infact I was lower than that, if hell had a basement then I was living in there, sharing a bunk bed with the devil and it was far from pleasant- I told my mum I wanted to kill myself and that's something a parent should never have to hear from their child. Therefore I was scared of hurting my girlfriends feelings by her not being able to cope with my issues, j didn't want her to have to put up with me constantly complaining about my problems, but I couldn't have been more wrong. If I could go back and change things I would, but we've come so far since then so maybe it was fate.

She's my second chance at life.

I eventually plucked up the courage to try speak to her again, and somehow she was willing to give me a second chance, when she had the right mind to tell me to do one. So we agreed to go to the cinema as our first date,a day I'll never forget, I was late to picking her up from her house- I'm bad for my time keeping I'm afraid👀 so we got to the cinema and the moment she got in my car I knew we'd hit it off, the conversation just flowed and we got on like a house on fire, and we eventually shared our first proper kiss in the cinema car parks- a kiss that will forever be engraved in my heart until the day I die, her smile melted my insides to the point I had butterflies from that moment onwards for the rest of the date.

We continued to see eachother and go on adventures, constantly improving our bond with one another up until the point I was ready to make her mine for good- and I wasn't gonna let it slip this time round that was for sure, she is one of a kind, the kind of girl people search their whole lives for and sometimes never find, but I had it all at my fingertips.

I remember how we made it official, we were sat in my car in a car park we often visit- it was dark and she was about to go home and I just said to her "shall we make it official"- now I know it's hardly Romeo and Juliet style, but hey it worked! She's was officially mine from that moment onwards, and it's only got better since.

The moment I knew I had fallen in love was insane, it was such an overwhelming moment that I didn't know what to do with myself- it all happened on the 23rd of April, at a leaving party for a fellow work colleague.

We were all going out for a few drinks but me and her brother were setting off later so we were drinking at his for a while, she was getting changed in the bedroom whilst I was watching the Everton v Man united game. I'd only ever seen her in her work uniform or clothes that she wore on our days out, never in a dress. She walked out of the bedroom in this little black dress, with her hair down and I obviously had check to approve, I thought nothing of it at first and watched the football again until I thought "hang on a minute", I instantly took a second glance and I was speechless, the way the dress hugged her figure was perfect, she had such an innocent look on her face that made me instantly fall for her, you could tell in her eyes that she was genuinely shocked by my reaction, I could have cried that day but I didn't- that would have been embarrassing.

But seriously, she doesn't realise how beautiful she is, he face radiates with beauty, her eyes smile at me even when her lips aren't, she's so lost in her own little world that she doesn't realise the potential she has inside of her to achieve amazing things.

From that moment on I was hooked, it was like a drug, I wanted to spend every minute of every day with her- as when I'm with her my mental issues are wiped clean, she's something special that I'm going to keep forever.

The first time I told her I loved her was terrifying, I had just played a cup final at football and won so I was obviously emotional anyway, but even after all the highs of Winning a trophy, all I could think about was her, so I somehow plucked up the courage to send her a message saying simply "Love you❤️"as I didn't want to seem too keen and put her off, anyhow I think she felt the same.

I fall in love with her everyday, I fall in love with her insecurities, I fall in love with her passions and her desires, he goals are mine too, her pain is my pain, she's had a tough life and I'm ready to erase the previous chapters and be the author to her future.

It's the little things you fall in love with, one moment I will always cherish was as recent as this weekend. We decided to go visit this place I had gone to as a kid, it was a hidden little spot across a farmers field, through some woods and there's a little river with a pebbled beach. It's far enough away from mainstream society but close enough to still feel connected, it's our little spot. Anyway, we were lying down on the sand just talking about life and, as I often do, i began to massage her kneck and she all of a sudden fell asleep, her genuine state of peacefulness made me happy, her soft lips resting on her arm.

As she napped I took a little wander up to the waters edge, looking across the lake just thinking how lucky i am, I felt in control for the first time in a while, I felt like she had given me 101 reasons to live.

Another little thing I love about her is the way she gazes out of the car window whilst we're driving on the way to one of our adventures, just starting into the distance, with my hand on her leg, our favourite songs playing in the background- we even have our own little "handshake", which is a pinky promise that flows into a fist bump- a symbol of trust and friendship- she's my best friend andThat shit is the best.

She has amazing potential to go far in life with out without me, she's an amazing young lady that will make so many people proud, she needs to realise this and j hope this makes her smile- I'm proud to call you my girlfriend. If she needed my heart to continue living, I wouldn't think twice about giving her it, I'd spend my last dying breath trying to make her laugh or tell her I love her, she's just unique, even when she's upset.

You've saved me, I'm getting help because if you, you've erased a dark cloud out of my life and I'm eternally great full for it- now let me help you, I love you so much and cannot wait to raise a family with you- just the thought of a little human running around our living room that is 50% me and 50% you is insane.

My girl, my soulmate, my best friend.

Over and out xx