It was long ago after a abusive relationship I Was BROKEN And IN DENIAL AT FIRST MY HAIR WAS FALLING OUT AND I LOST MY APPETITE AND BEFORE I KNEW IT I WAS VERY SICK HAVING A HARD TIME BREATHING MY ROOM MATE WHO WAS MORE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME CONVINCED ME TO GO TO THE DOCTOR RELUNTILY I WENT IN THERE THE NURSES TOOK ONE LOOK AT ME AND RUSHED ME BACK THEY SAID MY FINGERS WERE TURNING PURPLE I BELIEVE MY OXYGEN IN TAKE WAS 72 PERCENT THEY PUT ME ON A OXYGEN MASK AND HAD TO BE SENT TI ICU UNIT I STAYED THERE FOR 6 Months I Had 0 T Cells AND WAID ONLY 90 POUNDS I HAD TO BE FED IN MY ARMS I HAD A ROOM MATE WHO I WASN'T Sure If WE Were Going TO Get A LONG SHE WAS GANGSTER LIKE AND I WAS SHY AND QUITE MY ROOM MATE BROUGHT ME MY VCR AND INDIAN MOVIE HE BROUGHT ME A LOT OF MOVIES AND CHOCOLATE DONUT AND BEFORE I KNEW it I GOT BETTER MY T CELLS WENT UP AND IT WAS SO INCREDIBLY HARD BUT GOD GAVE ME THE STRENGTH TO SETUP AND I DID IT WAS A VERY EXZOSTING LONG FRUSTRATING FIGHT I HAD TO REGAIN MY MUSCLES I WENT FROM A WHEELCHAIR TO CRUSHES TO A CANE THANK GOD FOR BEING THERE WITH ME AND SENDING A WONDERFUL FRIEND BROTHER ROOM MATE TO HELP ME GET THROUGH IT WELL AFTER THAT I MADE SURE I WILL NEVER LET MY SELF GET SICK LIKE THAT AGAIN AND YES GOD WAS THERE FOR ME GIVING ME THE WILL AND ENCOURAGEMENT TO KEEP FIGHTING I GOT THIS WAY MY SELF I DID NOT TAKE MY MEDS I SAID TO MY SELF I WANT TO LIVE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE OR NOT AT ALL WOW WAS I WRONG IT REALLY DID BRING ME CLOSER TO GOD AND GIVE ME MORE APPRECIATION FOR LIFE THANK YOU GOD I LOVE YOU AMEN
Be honest with yourself
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Amen….