I just have this thing about my basement. There are bugs, and I am TERRIFIED of bugs. Like seriously, I see a spider, instant panic attack. It’s bad.
I CANNOT have my clothes in the basement unless they are IN the washer or IN the dryer. My clothes were in the dryer. My sister wanted to use the dryer. So she came upstairs and told me, and I was like “okay, I’ll be down in a second.”
I was down the stairs in less than two minutes. I didn’t even finish the song I was only midway through. That’s how FAST I was in the laundry room.
AND SHE TOOK ALL MY CLOTHES OUT, WHICH NOT ONLY MEANS SHE FUCKING TOUCHED THEM, SHE PILED THEM ON TOP OF THE WASHER.
THAT IS NOT CLEAN. THAT IS NOT SAFE FROM BUGS.
And this was already the SECOND time I had to wash all those clothes today, because the first time I forgot them in the washer and I can’t let my clothes dry by themselves or I’m worried mold will start to grow or something.
AND NOW I HAVE TO WASH THEM AGAIN GOD DAMN IT.
And I had to bring the clothes in my room and now I feel all creepy crawly buggy.
SHE COULD HAVE WAITED 30 EFFING SECONDS. IT WOULD NOT HAVE KILLED HER.
And I told her I didn’t like my clothes being out in the open in the basement, and said not to touch my clothes in the future. And she said, “well you took too long.” So by then I was already frustrated and lost my temper and said, “you could have waited two minutes, and if you ever touch my clothes again I’ll smack the shit out of you.” (bearing in mind my sister is 14. she can take a little swearing, she cusses me out enough.) And she made that mocking “nyeeh” sound and for the first time in years I hit her. Not hard. I just sort of swatted her arm. And I feel really bad because I try not to do that, but I was SO frustrated and angry, and the last thing I needed was her making fun of me for it.
AND IM STILL FUCKING FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY. I can’t believe I have to wash them again. I hate doing that. It wastes electricity, water, and detergent. And it’s bad for the environment. I HATE that.
I..feel.. STUPID.
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I understand that about people not touching ur clothe cuz I don’t like it when they touch my clothe either.
But u have to understand that ur sister doesn’t know how ocd feel.ur anger is tors the ocd not ur sister.What u where having was an anxiety attack I think what u need to do is talk to ur sister help her understand about u and ocd.
Oh it was hardly abuse. Seriously, calling it that is laughable. The worst you could say is verbal abuse, and when she wanted me downstairs she’d come up and said “get your fucking ass down here.” We’re just very lax with language in my family, particularly the two of us, it’s something we know not to take seriously from one another. She didnt even get mad at me, and she has a worse temper than I do. She didn’t even flinch. I barely touched her, literally–it was hardly more than what you’d do to get someones attention to say hi walking past, it was only a big deal because I usually wouldnt have made any contact with her at all in that context– and I’m only a few years older than her. Ive apologized for losing my temper and she understood. She did it to me less than a week ago and really wound up and hit me, and I didnt even do anything. She does that pretty regularly, and the two of us play fight often as well and hit eachother worse than that. We’re both kids, and we’re siblings. Siblings do that. Does that excuse touching her at all? No, and that’s why I said I was also mad at myself, and why I felt stupid. And why I later apologized and promised not to lose my temper like that again, as she promised to be more patient as well and wait for me next time to take care of my own clothes.
I also wasn’t looking for your sympathy. I was just venting. I was expressing my frustration in what I consider a healthier way than taking it out on my sister.
And to the person who said I needed to explain it to her, my family does not acknowledge that I have OCD despite being diagnosed and think I’m making it up. So she wouldn’t be interested in the explanation. I could try I suppose and see if she’s more reasonable than my parents, but I wouldnt even know where to begin. She has no idea what OCD even is.
Hi there, try not to feel to bad for hitting your sister, that is wot sisters do, god i remember me and my sister trying to throw each other down the stairs!!! I used to have a bad OCD about my sister touching any of my possesions years ago, if she did the anger and frustration i would feel was overwhelming. It is horrible when that happens, esp after already washing them twice! I understand completly how you feel, your sister should have waited for you, does she understand the anxiety it causes you? My sister learnt about OCD and i must admit, she did not come near my stuff cause of the anxiety it caused.
my sister is now 36 years old, and believe me much as i love her, i could still slap her now!!!! It was a normal reaction. hope you feel abit better, take care Love Lou xx