Today I realized that I need to actually address my OCD and stop running from it. I was diagnosed in college and after a few sessions with a therapist I felt "crazy" and so I stopped going. I've been okay for the most part in the years since but it is resurfacing with a vengeance now. I just moved into a new apartment and it is very nice BUT I cannot seem to get comfortable. I'm very interested in knowing if anyone has OCD similar to mine because I feel I'm weird for what I feel. My anxiety comes from germs/cleanliness and there's nothing I feel I can do to prevent it. As I said, my apartment is really nice but for some reason I feel like it's not clean. I have wiped and cleaned and sprayed disinfectant and I just haven't gotten comfortable yet and I don't know what it's going to take. I haven't wanted to eat since I've been here (a week) and I have been touching things minimally (walls, lights, etc.). I have put air freshners throughout the house but the natural smells from like the wood and closets is bothering me, I have found myself holding my breath when opening the pantry and the refrigerator. Ironically I can go to a friend's apartment that is not as nice and I feel okay for the most part. So I don't understand why I am not comfortable with my things even though they're in a new place. The worst part is I don't REALLY know what triggers this and I don't know AT ALL how to get over it. I am afraid that I am going to feel like a prisoner for this next year in this lease and I shouldn't because the place is great…I'm just not. If anyone can relate or can share or offer advice…I'd welcome it.