im new to this and im 40 yrs old..just want to know if alot of people or anyone identifies with some of these and im sure alot do,,just a bit of my "story" i have had ocd for 30yrs..its not who i am its just a very intrusive part of my life,,im alot more than the disease..its hard thou for me to socialize i feel so awkard and out of place…i assign to colors to everything!! blue green purple silver gold is good. black brown grey red yellow is bad,,as i walk by something if i see the good color i have to maintain it in my head for like a minute,,if the color varies in anyway i have to look at the object again and try to maintain the good color till im "satisfied" ,,if im walking out of my house and i bump into my shoe on the floor i take it as a :sign" i bettr go back and check for fire..im just giving some of the stuff i do…i project my thoughts alot on others,kind of "magical thinking" i think i know what they are feeling towards me,,i have had enough girlfriends but always some how "sabatoge it" i wish i could socialize more but again its so weird to me..my life is basically my family and 2 little nephews,,,i wish it was more..i have so much to offer ,,i have such a big heart but i dont now how to give it,,,i have been in so many programs thru my life and seen so many doctors..im in a great one now ,we have groups 3 days a week for 3 hours and i see a psychatrist..but truthfully it hasnt helped as much as i liked…i feel great when im around people i trust i can actually "let them in" i had alot of bullying issues growing up alot of abuse which i think made the ocd worse..im sure it did…im very defensive i dont wanna be,,,,,,,,,,,ok that a bit about me lol :)))))))))))))))))))))))) thank u
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Hi Robert you’r not alone i feel the same way about socializing i too feel awkward and the anxiety will just take over it’s really hard i now rarely go out although my OCD is more mainly about contamination but if i get an intrusive thought i will clean or count to ten ten times with no interruptions it’s hard isn’t it.
yup it is…im going to this supposedly "top doctor" in manhattan monday ill se what he says and let u know..do they address this in the uk the ocd issues?