Hi guys

I think it's been months since I don't come here. News about Gigi, good and bad.

Only Good one;: I'm walking again, thanks to walks, lifting weights with my feet. painted the room in shades of pink. I don't miss a relationship AT ALL.

Bad ones: Dyslexia attacks again, I need a dictionary to write even in spanish. The shrink says I'm not euforic or deppressed, that I'm simple are.

Thoughts of suicide again, studying the best ways to make it appear natural, studied the ways: car accident, a shot of adrenaline to make my heart explode. 180 mgs of potasium. The thing is nobody wanted to run over a woman in canes. Adrenaline is only sold to hospitals, and I'd need like 1 thousand dollars to take enough potasium.

Very bad ones: They discovered I'm HIV at work and fired me, so last november 10th was my last appointment with the dr.

A few days ago almost had pneumonia, didn't want my family to discover my Social Scurity expired, but vodka saved me.

I always was a communist until I knew HIV people in those countries are in jails called "farm hospitals", so before the elections I turned to the other band: capitalism, commies won, and the Frist Lady who was supposed to be one of my college best friends doesn't remenber even my name. All my friends moved to Argentina…

The guy who raped me appeared, trying to make me believe he forgot all, he couldn't fool me and I asked him $$$, the guy dissapeared again, but the brothers are in my FB list (a priest and a poet who came back from Texas with nothing and now is working is the biggest newspaper of the country, of course his family owns it)

So here I am trapped in a comunist country, with tons of political problems. And my damn cousin is a congresman for the capitalist, so I'm doomed.

If you know how to pray ask:

Me to find a job asap /I'm 45 and walk funny/

Or a car run over me veryyy soon