I so much can understand how much pain you may feel. I felt so much the same after the loss of my father due to suicide with no explanation as to why he took his life.
However, there is still purpose in life. I cannot explain exactly why, but I believe that there is and that far better and less traumatic times are ahead, if we allow these times to pass (and best with the help of friends or family, if they feel trustworthy and supportive).
The most positive thing that I can share is that emotions do change with time. They do. That is certain. The situations that we deal with, of course, will still require attention and effort (and, yes, some degree of emotion).

In short, you can do this. I believe in you. If you need someone to believe in you until you believe in yourself, I am very glad to be that person, since I truly understand what you have experienced.

If you want more about what I have gone through, feel free to ask me. I think that we are very similar in life experience. And, I truly believe in you. You can do this. Just say with it, one day at a time. Even one minute at a time. You can do this, and, if you do, you will end up being the person who tells another person that it is possible to get through such a time as this. Who knows? Perhaps you were the person who was born with the knowledge and heart to help others to get through exactly “such a time as this” when they face a similar situation in the future.

What do you think? I would like to know.