My biggest goal is to except, adapt, and overcome my depression but i have thousands of small goals to achieve before I can complete that. Since i will have my biggest support system here i wanted to achieve my goals with you guys on a weekly blog. This week i faced a lot of pain and anxiety that i didn’t take very well. i hate to admit when i have failed but i have vowed that i will not hide or lie to myself anymore because i want to do better. Now it is Sunday and i am reflecting on everything that took place over the weekend. I remember being made at my fiancé for not telling me something but instead of calling him and texting him off the hook for him to answer me back i took a cooler approach because he is always fast to tell me that im crazy or im starting witch to someone like me just upsets me more, so i just kept my emotions stern because im a very emotional person and thought about what i wanted him to know and i told him once. after i told him i would usually call back or text back and tell him im sorry that i didn’t mean it because i second guess my self a lot but i did not this time, i hate to hide my feelings why should i if i feel attacked i am going to speak up about it. i hate when ppl tell me im wrong for feeling the way i do because they don’t understand so i speak my mind and treat them like the crazy one because if you cant understand me than i cant understand you either. i am equal to you just because i have anxiety, deal with stress differently does not give you the right to tell me im wrong im not wrong and I don’t have to hide my feelings from no one take me as i am or don’t take me at all!!!.
Reading this helped me realize that I'm not crazy either.. I tend to go off about little things that bug me too. Though my bf never tells me I'm crazy but i call myself that because I want to beat them to it. But you are right just because we feel things more intense then everyone else does, does not make us crazy or wrong. 🙂