I’m confused with my mind set right now. I have this anger in me towards the people I love, attitude on another level, but it isn’t like that out in public, only with the people I live with, like my father, mother, and sister. My parents describe me as rube most days, unpredictable emotion, where as my teachers, friends, and other colleagues describe me as kind, thoughtful and  caring. I dont know what it is with my family that makes it so much diffrent than other colleagues I care for. I’m unsure if it has something to do with my trama from being abused, my panic disorder, or an underlying disorder not yet diagnosed.