i lost my dad 2 years ago to suicide after he became very depressed n started drinking n i havent felt the same since he left. im sad every single time i think about him n every other night i cry, im too scared to talk to anyone else about it because they wont understand coz no one else i know has ever lost someone this way. i also dont really know what to say, i feel as tho people feel sorry for me n dont know what to say to me coz i may end up getting upset but im probably just being paranoid. i miss him very much n all i wish is to be able to hug him again. i think im even more sad recently because soon marks the 2 years of his death and with everything going on with the coronavirus, and the horrible racism in america and lockdown has got me so stressed n i dont know how to calm down.
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The Past
Herefornow, , Depression, Depression, 0
It seems like some of my problems stem right from childhood. A problem of concentration. I always had problems...
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Quiet
MForeverChained, , Depression, Depression, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Weight Loss, 1
I'm stil numb even till today. In the past three days, I've seen my mother at the most 3...
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None
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My insomnia is getting the best of me again currently, and has been the last couple of nights. Tonight...
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Nowhere To Hide
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Getting My Confidence Back
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I have no where else to vent
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You think a big sister would be happy for her baby brother for getting a puppy with his roommates....
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Future me: sorry
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The Pace Of Things
AlexSophia88, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, OCD, Anxiety, Career, Depression, Grief, PTSD, Questions, Therapist, Therapy, 0
So, things seem to have halted for a bit. My roommate is back from his month-long work trip and...
The loss of a beloved one is really terrible, especially by suicide. My father passed away 8 years ago, not by suicide but because he was an old man. That’s nature I know, but I still dream of him during the night after all this time.
They are part of our life. part of us.
And I have depression problems myself, sometime life appears completely meanigless to me.
How to calm down? I don’t know, I just go through various pages looking for people that is suffering in way similar to mine. I feel a little bit less alone.
It doesn’t work every time, but sometime it ‘s good feeling that I’m not alone.