most of the time I feel alone even when I’m around people. My mom never notices when I’m upset she just constantly yells at me and say mean things. My bf just calls me weird and distances himself. And my “friends” don’t even call or text me and when I am around them they don’t even talk to me. Sometimes I question what my purpose is of being alive.
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This doesn’t feel real
kates1987, , Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, Anxiety, Career, Grief, 0
The title of this first blog entry has been something I have said probably a hundred times since last...
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I’ve had time to think on things…
PCCRASH, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Child, Grief, Sleep Disorders, 1
I’m 33, I’m an IT Sysadmin, guess that makes me a geek. I’m currently living in Huntsville, AL. I...
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Seeing a light
iarose, , Depression, Depression, Grief, Medication, 2
Today was a sad day. My great Aunt passed away and her funeral was today. It was so nice...
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every day….
delane1, , Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, OCD, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 0
Every day, lately, i keep feeling like i’m going to fall into a deep sleep. Every day i feel...
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Crack It Open
brighteyes91, , Anxiety, Depression, 0
My brain has been keeping me up at night. Racing Racing Racing The only time I stop on a...
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I need to Feel
Vividnightmare, , Depression, Anxiety, 0
I don't belong here anymoreDidn't think I ever wouldTime moves faster with the daysStill i feel like I'm in...
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I cant help but notice
Littlewing, , Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, Uncategorized, 0
The longer i live the more I realize so many people have their heads in the cloud or their...
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So upset and weak -rant
naomijane, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Questions, Social Anxiety, 0
Feeling very weak right now after having three breakdowns today. I woke up feeling sad, bf kept asking questions...
I’m so sorry. Hang in there, friend. A lot of people are on different wavelengths. I was attracted to the name of this wellness community because I finally did meet some friends who would become my self described tribe. Everyone has a tribe. I met my tribe at meetup.com where there are over 500 groups in my area with shared interests. It is not a dating site lol. When my own tribe is lacking, I try to find another tribe and I’m glad you are here and I’m glad I’m here because my tribe cannot handle everything from me right now lol. And that’s okay today. They are struggling too. We are all on this journey through life. We all have our own story and our own trauma. We just have to hang in there long enough to see the beauty and goodness in others and ourselves. I remember being a teenager and saying to myself, wow this is not how or where I want to live. I had to decide to hang in there until I was 18 and had other options. We go from one journey to another and sometimes feel lost. Look for the joy everyday. It is in these moments that we can rest and laugh and sing and see light. I am old now, but life is still such a learning experience. I have to walk away from toxic relationships. I have to set boundaries. I have to know how to heal myself. I have to understand that I can’t fix anyone. I can barely fix myself half the time. The past year has been so illuminating. My truth is that most media is a lie. If I don’t turn it off and become very selective with what I subject my eyes and ears to, I get very wrapped up with consumerism and various beauty ideals and what I’m supposed to be doing to be happy. What makes me happy cannot be bought. It’s about the cultivation of the great people out there that you will meet along the way. You well also meet people that are not great and may even hurt you but you will both learn from every situation. What makes me feel better is being outdoors. Participating in media that makes me learn something or gets me to feel more relaxed and takes me away from this crazy world. Art and music make me happy. Being around little children and their absolute truth about right and wrong and trust and love keep me grounded. Learning relaxation techniques with meditation and Tai chi and just being able to take a full breath and say to myself sometimes, not my circus, not my monkeys. I do not have to get involved in their drama, whether it be someone stressed out and driving badly or my family running around stressing out. I breathe and try and take care of my own issues. Some days it comes easier than others. Today I will choose new habits. I will ride my bike or take a walk or read. I will eat and brush my teeth, get dressed and show up