I don’t know how to keep going and I don’t know if I can anymore. I have nothing to live for. I feel like so empty inside. I feel sick everyday, I sleep all the time, I can barely get through my classes. I’m bot doing well in half of my classes. I don’t even want to be in college. I hate it here so much but I can’t drop out because I won’t go anywhere in life if I don’t have a degree. My mom and my sister don’t understand how I feel at all but they expect me to listen to them. Half the time they just blame me for the way I am. They tell me that my life is just going to be bad but I just have to deal with it. Why would I put up with living a terrible life when I could just kill myself? I don’t even have anyone that I could possibly talk to about this stuff because I have no friends. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know why I’m so out of place everywhere I go. I feel so lonely every second of the day. I haven’t hugged anyone in years. I want to kill myself, I just want it to be fast, easy, and painless.