I’m so lonely and it physically hurts. I’ve been lonely my whole life. I’ve never had real friends. The thing I want most in life right now is a group of friends that i feel comfortable with and can talk to whenever. I’ve never had that. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to talk to people and I don’t know why no one ever wants to talk to me.  Thinking about how lonely I am makes me want to die. My family doesn’t understand why I want friends because they’ve never had any. I always see other people having fun with their friend groups and i will never have that and I don’t understand why. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.