So here's the deal. I got a job a couple of months ago as a car salesman. There is a lot of stigma on such a career and understandably so. This would be an ideal environment for me back in my using days. It's actually not such a bad gig and the money is great. My dilemna is that I never have any time. This job has consumed my life. I work around 65 hours a week. I make meetings when I can which is not very often. I'm usually late for my home group. I keep my intent first and foremost because sometimes that's all I have. I have my daughter most of the week and I'm lucky if I can get a few hours of quality time with her. I started dating and had to tell the wonderful lady about my demanding schedule and she had to be ok with that if we were to go any further. She is a blessing in that she is very understanding and patient.  I am frequently unhappy with the rigors of my job but I have Faith that it will change. Like I said, work consumes me. I didn't get sober to be miserable and I know for certain that money is not happiness. I applied for a job as an addiction counseler. I have an interview this week. I think I will get the job, they asked me to apply not the other way around. I guess I am going thru life on life's terms. I remember when things really sucked and no matter how bad I think things might be, I know its by far better than it was. I am very grateful to the program and the people in it. They/it has helped me beyond my wildest dreams. It will get better. Not sure really why I'm blogging this. I have opportunities and doors have been opened that were once closed. I am looking forward to life, the future looks better than I could have possibly imagined. His will, not mine. I really do hope I get that job though. Can you imagine, me being a counseler? Never would have thought such a thing. Me helping people. That's just a crazy thought.