Hi! So let me get started here and introduce myself first before I ramble about part of my life (if you don’t mind). My pseudonym, since I don’t feel comfortable revealing my real name right now, is Anais Hax Jasper. I am a 16 year old pansexual NB (I identify as genderfluid, for those of you who do not know what that is I will explain later), I prefer the “they/them” pronouns but you can use “she/her” but I really don’t like “she/her”, and I have 3 siblings. Yes I am a catholic but I support LGBT+ and I also have depression, anxiety and ADHD. I like animals, music and I like to draw and make movies. It’s nice to meet you!

Now, about this “genderfluid” thing, it’s kind of like this: I really have no fixed gender, I do however have a sex and that sex is female. Sometimes I will feel like a boy, a girl, neither, both or all kind of genders. No I am not trans, no I don’t have both genitalia and yes I still can give birth to a human being. I’m pansexual, which means that I can fall in love with anyone regardless of gender. No this is not like bisexual, bisexual means you like BOTH girls AND boys (note the prefix bi- means 2). I was born with a cleft palate and lip, a facial deformity kind of thing (don’t worry I got surgery for it but I still need to take more surgeries), this caused me to be born legally blind (I can see but it’s just colors, dots, outlines and its blurry) until a few surgeries later and a pair of glasses. Now, about my cleft, my nose will randomly make squeaking sounds since I have the scars in my mouth… ANYWAYS..

I suffer from depression, anxiety and I also have ADHD. Yay, I’m a whole lot of mental! I don’t know when my depression started actually (but some of my family members have it so it’s in my DNA) but it just happened. Now, I’ve had anxiety for a while, I couldn’t even speak to those I wasn’t comfortable with and I was always quiet but not anymore. My ADHD causes me to have bad study habits, I can’t focus well, and I tend to get off topic a lot.

I like to play guitar, sing and draw and read and write. When I was about 10, my parents wanted me to take piano like my older sister, and me being the kid with no voice at all, I did it willingly. After a couple of years, let’s say about 4-5 years, I got bored of the piano and started to take up guitar. (I’m actually pretty good at it too!) And I guess, that’s all I have to say for today. Anais out!