Hello everyone, I got this problem that is making my life a living hell for a few months. I am sorry, it will be kinda long story but I will keep it short as much as possible. I would be so happy if you would tell me what do you think about it and what can I do to make it go away.
On December I was going through a really bad break up. I thought I would be okay after two weeks. But of course, I wasn't. I didn't think I actually got out of it but I started to live again after two months and actually, I was okay to talk to him again after another few months. Everything was good. But I think it somehow left scars on my heart and when I see photo of him, I feel like everything inside me is broken and I am feeling too numb and empty. There was also a lot of going on in our friendship, but it wasn't really too important. I thought I fell in love with him again. It was the only possible resolution.
And the worst thing started a month ago- I was so scared to go on twitter or on facebook because I didn't want to see his face. I didn't want to end up being broken again. So I shut inside myself. Now, I can't even go on computer, on skype, or on social sites. He is on vacation right now so I know I won't see him. But I can't even talk to my friends anymore and I thought of turning off my phone so I won't get messages or phone calls from them. I just can't bring myself to talk to anyone on internet (I am on my tablet right now and I feel more safe than on my computer, but I still can't go on these social sites where I know most of the people.). I am too scared to go there, I don't know why. I am fine with talking to strangers but when I think of turning on my skype or something… I start to panic. I can't talk to them or even see them. And those friends on skype are my best friend who I've known for more than 5 years. Yet, I am still scared to go there. And I have no problem with going out with my friends.
Thank you so much if you put comment under my blog, I am really desperate to know what to do. And I am going to psychologist on 26th so I also need to know if I should mention it to her or just wait for it to go away.