So, school starts back up on Monday. I am kind of excited because it\'s my last semester and then I will graduate in May 🙂 I think this semester will be easier than the last one too, so that makes me hopeful that it will go well. Although the first couple of days are always overwhelming because you get all your syllabi and see everything you have to do for the entire semester and it can certainly be overwhelming and anxiety-producing. Luckily, I know people in all of my classes, so that helps a little with the anxiety as well. I am certainly not looking forward to getting up so early again though 🙁 I live an hour away from my university so I have to get up extra early to get ready and travel to my morning classes. But only one more semester right?! Well, I do have to take one summer course, but that shouldn\'t be a big deal.

 

 

I am kind of getting anxious about applying for graduate school though. I did manage to send emails out to the individuals that I asked to do recommendation letters for me, but other than that I have not filled out the application or sent for my transcripts or anything. I really need to get on that, but I don\'t know why I keep putting it off. I am pretty sure I will be accepted, so it\'s not that I am worried about that, but for some reason I am just dreading getting all of that stuff together. Anyway…..

 

 

I might be doing another group counseling thing this semester, which I am excited about. Last semester my group really helped out a lot, maybe even more than my individual counseling. At the same time I am trying not to get my hopes up because I know that it can never be the same as it was.

 

 

I am a little worried because it turns out my husband is going on a mission soon for two months, though they said it might get extended to 90 days. I sure hope not, because I really really want him to be here for my graduation or I will be really upset. I don\'t get upset about much, but this is a big day that I have been working toward what feels like forever and I really want him to be able to be there. Hopefully everything works out.

 

 

Also, I know this is going to sound odd, but I am a little worried because I am feeling good right now and I feel like I have a handle on my anxiety and depression for the moment. I get nervous sometimes when this happens because either 1) I am waiting for it to "attack" me again, and you never know when this will happen or 2) I get to thinking that I am rid of it and then when it comes back it depresses me even more than before to discover that nope, it\'s still there. I am trying to be positive about it though and just hang on to the good feeling as long as I can.

 

 

Okay, I know this was a long ramble, but thanks for listening 🙂

1 Comment
  1. Mo 9 years ago

    It was a GREAT ramble!
    Yes; you sound very well CB. Embrace that for all its worth.
    I go thru fear of the future too now that I am feeling better. We will bounce back tho as we just have no matter what happens.
    I hope your Hubby will be there for graduation and congrats on getting closer to achieving your goal. Sounds like you have put alot of work and dedication to it. You are a success!

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