Well, im back at it again. Six months later. Whats happened since my last blog?
• I came out as androgynous
• Attempted suicide again
• Diagnosed with PTSD
• Dropped out of highschool
• Got addicted to alcohol
In July i came out as androgynous, and i look the part. I got very mixed reactions out of it and have lost family members over it.
In November i attempted suicide because my most recent ex at the time left me because i wanted a future with her.
In late November i dropped out because i had the worst anxiety attack. I passed out, my heart rate was everywhere, and i was flushed. Never in my life have i experienced an anxiety attack like that. Because of that i dropped out of school, im able to go back whenever but id still be a sophomore.
In September i started to drink vodka. I couldnt help it because nothing else was there to help. I had nothing else to coax me to be happy other than alcohol. I drink 3 small bottles of vodka a day to ease my pain.
So thats the jist of everything. I dont have much of a reason to keep going now. 16 year old brat with no friends and a confusing identity to boot.
random side note…
would anyone be interested in dating a 16 year old androgynous person with severe depression and anxiety? I love to paint and write and play sims 4. Im a very understanding person and have the biggest heart ever. I just need a connection with someone out there. Please? I have nobody… Im not old enough to be on dating websites and im no longer a student so i have no other form of contact to the outside world other than this. Please? Im not a creep… im just very lonely 🙁