Ok,  so where to start…well, in person I’m pretty shy but once you get me talking about something I enjoy you´d pretty much have a hard time trying to shut me up. I´ve seen how dark the world could be, but honestly, if you think about it it´s not the WORLD, not the earth…it´s humans.  Despite what I´ve been through and what I´ve seen I still like to see-to find- the good in everyone. I believe everyone has potential and I´d like to help them find it and I won´t give up on them, unlike the people who gave up on me, of course, I’m not an expert but I´ll do my best to help them. Second, I love nature, I love animals, if I were to pick between living with animals then with my own kind I would choose living with animals. Animals don´t kill out of anger or for fun or out of revenge or jealousy, they don´t intentionally hurt you they don´t know right from wrong, good and evil they’re so…innocent in a way. I love being with nature,  I enjoy just sitting in the grass with my back leaning against a trunk of a tree and close my eyes listening to the wind rustle its leaves as the wind caresses my cheeks, the sweet tweets and melody the birds sing, honestly if you listen closely enough it´s like a song, a beautiful song that could only be heard by those who are willing to listen. I wish everyone could experience this ¨connection¨ to nature, it´s really amazing to go somewhere where man hasn´t ruined it, to take a deep breath of clean air and to look around you at the wonderful details of the trees and mountains, rocks and leaves. To watch open-mouthed and wide-eyed as animals you´ve never seen in person run a few feet past you and holding your breath so as to not make any noise to scare the deer in front of you to memorize its pelt pattern and to remember every detail, I don´t know about you but seeing it in person is so..precious. Lol, told you when I start talking about something I enjoy I keep talking, usually, I get lost in it so sorry if it happens again. Next, I love music, I play the clarinet, piano, cello, and guitar, well I am teaching my self currently how to play the cello, I like any genre, but my favorite is heavy rock, classical rock, alt-rock, heavy metal rock, I don´t know why I guess it´s because it´s so…energetic? lol. I love to draw and paint it´s how I can show the world what I see in my eyes. I write poems and songs, I only have two full songs right now most of them are half done. I like to write usually short stories. But, my most favorite thing is reading, it´s my escape, my books were the ones that taught me to show compassion and kindness to people and that I shouldn´t let what happened to me turn me into a bitter angry person, of course, I won’t lie and say that that bitter angry person never shows up from time to time because they do, I won’t lie and say that I am a good person, no ones a good person. I have my fallouts, I get jealous, I get mad, I hate but that’s part of being human but I always get reminded every time I read my books what jealousy and anger and hate got people and the strongest people are the ones who can show kindness and love to the people who´ve wronged them because it´s easy to fall into anger. And so I do my best to be the better version instead of what the world wants me to be. My books taught me everything my parents and family couldn´t all the good things and I drank it up all those good things. I still struggle with my monster, the bad side of me, sometimes I  let it out when someone gets close to me because from how I grew up everyone left me and I have to always remind myself that not everyone is the same, but it´s hard when the people who should have never left did and never looked back and you feel like crap and not worth being cared about. It´s a horrible feeling…being abandoned by both parents and being rejected by your own family …and I´d never wish something like that on anyone. It’s weird how books could show you more family love than in real life. Lol, so your probably thinking I’m a nature freak, band nerd, book nerd, etc. And I am, who says you can´t be in just one category? I love to go ax throwing, I like adventure and to do thrilling things like jump off a fricken cliff into the sea! (which I have not done but want to) I like scary movies, I like to go surfing and dancing and singing, I’m a huge hopeless-romantic, I´ve never experienced love family, love, etc but I have an idea of what it’s like from my books and from my friends but that never stops me from dreaming of ¨the one¨ I like to watch sunsets and looking at the stars I have an idea of what my first date would-¨perfect date¨.  I’m a teenage girl after all!  of course, I’m not boy crazy but it’s still nice to think of what my first boyfriend would be like. Also, I’m single because I haven´t found him yet, I almost did but, yeah. Call me picky or whatever but whose to tell me what’s good enough for me? I get to decide that. I learned that life is short and you never know what can go wrong so to take every day as a gift and not be afraid to do things, talk to the person you think is cute, be out there don’t let fear drive you away from something (unless its bad) stop worrying about what others think or say about you just have FUN and give them something to talk about, be you,  accept you, once you do see you, your life will change, love people, care and be kind don’t waste what little life you have left in anger and hate because life is short and every second counts. 🙂