I feel like I give off the wrong impression sometimes. My natural reaction to stress is to distant myself from others. I do this as sort of a control thing. If I can't handle something going on in my life then I regain control of whatever I can. This usually is by me isolating myself, so everything that happens in my surroundings is controlled by me. It isn't to be mean, or that I don't care (which people often confuse it for) it's simply so that I can get a grip on what's happening and adjust to it. Often times I lose friends over this, because they see it as me simply not caring about them. I care about them a lot. It has nothing to do with how much I care. This is where confusion begins and friendships are lost. It's just the way I deal with things. I'm a very loving person. I tend to take on other people's problems, even though I wish I didn't. To me it's crazy that anyone would think that I don't care, when I do so much. Sometimes when I get really overwhelmed I'll shut my phone off fora few days just so I can be completely left alone. People get mad thinking that I don't want to talk to them, and when I explain that I need some time alone they usually just stop talking to be for good. This is how the majority of my friendships have been ruined. I wish things were different, but I also know that there are times where I just need to be alone. That's me. That's how I am. It isn't to offend anyone, it's simply to keep my sanity. I really wish some people would open their minds a bit more, and realize that we're all different and that's just the way it is. I don't act how people think I should act. I act like me. Take it or leave it.
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