Complaints first today ~ I have a headache, it's raining again, and we have to go to Wal-Mart and do our shopping. Ugh, I hate that store!

Last night my REM sleep behavioral disorder was in full swing, and I punched Aaron in the back several times, kicked the hell out of his legs, and did who knows what else. I finally got up and moved to the couch when he woke me for the third time. I wanted him to be able to get some peaceful sleep. I feel really guilty when I do those things, because I don't mean to but I can't help it. My body acts out my dreams because that separation that's supposed to happen between body and mind doesn't. Thank GOD he's so patient with me about it and understands that it's not meant to be an assault on him.

I did go and exercise yesterday, and was really proud of myself. I did 2 miles on the trail with Aaron, then we played football with Zach and Michelle's kids, then we played doubles tennis for quite awhile and then let the kids play it. We were at the park for 3 hours! Spending time with Michelle and Mike and the kids is always a good time~ we end up laughing so much it makes my stomach hurt.

This is the first time that Zachary has seen Corey since the whole incident. It's been about 2 months I think. But they played fine together and we weren't in a place that anything bad could happen. They were in our sight at all times. It still makes me nervous though. I can't help it. I see Corey differently now, and I have to admit that I don't trust him anymore. Is that wrong?

We got some good news from the vet about the kitty. Looks like we're not going to have to put her down. She's got pancreatitis, which is REALLY painful apparently. She started her medications yesterday evening and is resting a lot more comfortably since. I'm so glad there was something we could do for her. She should be back to normal in about 2 weeks if everything follows course.

It's pouring outside, as I said earlier. It's been raining since I got up at 10 a.m. ( I know~ I slept really late!) and it doesn't look like it's going to abate anytime soon. At least it's not so terribly hot out though. I just hope it stops before we got out to exercise tonight.

We might go visit with Michelle and Mike and the kids this evening, but no serious plans have been made. It's all kind of up in the air.

The good news is that I didn't feel awful last night! Making suncatchers with Zach was fun, and then going out and playing after exercising made it even better. The tears have finally seemed to stop, and the self-loathing. It may be just for now, but I'm going to relish it while I can. I think I deserve it after the last few days. And it gives my family a much needed and deserved break from my foul, depressed mood.

I think I'm going to make another suncatcher today ~ now that I know it works I have some ideas for some really neat ones. Zach will probably want to make another one too. His came out awesome! It's gorgeous and really colorful.

Anyhow, my family is impatiently waiting for me to join them in doing nothing so I guess I should get off the computer for awhile. I hope everyone's weekend is off to a good start. And thank you too everyone again for your support during these last few bad days.


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