I feel like life is just really rough right now and I feel like I can't hold myself together lately. Meltdowns are happening a lot and school is difficult, which is only making me more stressed. And I just got an email from my academic advisor about her concern after we just had a positive meeting, two of my profs emailed her after our meeting expressing concerns. She was so disappointed in hearing that I have had trouble going to class. Where as I am trying to go to class and I caught up with all my work (i have been out sick due to being pregnant and having a lot of issues). It's just frustrating I guess. And the reason I don't go to my classes sometimes is because I just break down entirely. I am too afraid to admit that to her and I am also afraid that if I admit that to her she's going to see me as pathetic and crazy OR tell me to drop out, withdrawal from school. But I can't do that. I just can't. I have to finish off the semester, which is only 4 more weeks. I feel like i am falling aprat. I break down almost every morning and I can't function because it's jsut a spiral of darkness. And with all the pains and sickness, I swear it's not normal. Yet, I went to the hospital and they were dumb and treated me like an idiot. I just am fed up. While everyone says are you feeling hte baaby kick and its the normal time to feel the baby kick, im not. All I am feeling is upsetness, saddness, misery, and pain. I just don't see the point in anything anymore. I am exhausted and I feel miserable and can not for the life of me stop crying. I want to quit life so badly and everything. I am so upset and I am sick of school. I am sick of living to everyone's expectations. And when I tell the truth, they arre just upset and don't want to hear it.