I need help. First and formost I am not intending to hurt anybody's feelings with anything I write on here and I'm so very sorry if I do this.
Basically, for the past year I've been confused about my gender. I identify as biologically female but at times I've felt strongly disliking my body. For example I particularly dislike my chest and genital area and at school whenever we do P.E I feel uncomfortable changing with the other girls.I did research on the internet about this but I went into denail about possibly having gender dysphoria or being gender fluid. As time has gone on I've had periods of extreme dislike of my female body and just wanting to be a boy; to act like one, everything but I also have strong periods of feeling very femmine and like a girl; loving my chest, legs, etc and generally being a girl. This had me thinking if maybe I could possibly be gender fluid but I have no idea.I would just like to know what is going on and clear some things in my head because this has confused my greatly and I would appreciate any help given.
The reason I am upset is because tonight I confided in a close friend about my feelings and she completely disagreed and told me to not be parnoid. In her words she said "I know someone in my family who is gender fluid and you are not." This really upset me because she rejected me outright without asking me how I felt and maybe I am just going through a phase or maybe not but this whole situation has been eating away at me and I would just really like some help to clear things out.
Again, I'm sorry if I have offended anybody and if anyone can help I very much appreciate it!
Thank you very much