Well, you know how OCD people like things the same way on the same day at the same time? My world has been rocked lately by circumstances beyond my control and I don't know what to do about it. I'm very confused today – I can't take any more changes.

It all started when my sister had her surgery 10 weeks ago. All of a sudden, I was going to the hospital – which takes all afternoon- 3 times a week. That really threw me for a loop. Ever since then, any changes to my schedule beyond what I've already made really throw me for a loop. For example, I'm used to making a big breakfast for my husband every morning. Well, this morning he had to go out and brought doughnuts home for breakfast. Well, what am I to do with that? He has an appointment in an hour that will take an hour or so and then he said we would have a bite of lunch. What am I to do with that? I don't fix lunch, I'm in the middle of a project at that time.

I'm terribly confused and don't know what to do next. Today is a "hospital day", so I don't have all day to fool around. I guess you would call me rather INFLEXIBLE, but I can't help it. I know it is part of the OCD, but this is the hardest part for me to deal with. WORLD, STOP CHANGING THINGS ON ME! I'm walking around in a terrible fog and am totally at a loss as to how to rearrange my day to fit the circumstances. My husband is rather amused by my lack of flexiblity, but it's really quite disturbing. I think I'll go lie down and see if the fog passes and I can make a "plan". I need a plan for the day!