Okay, so I’ve been struggling with Intrusive thoughts which have made me feel not in control of my body. I went to a a friend to ask for help, more so to ask for a place to rant. After ranting for so long, they wanted me to get help from someone. That’s when I’d gone to the suicide hotline that brought me here. Now that i’m here, I feel a bit lifted from this dark place of depression. Yet, I still feel captured by this overwhelming sense confusion and helplessness. I know talking to someone won’t get rid of the intrusive thoughts. But, I thought it might calm them maybe? I don’t know. I’ve always wondered what people who don’t go through this feel like. I wonder if I will ever be mentally stable enough to be like them. “Normal” if you will. My mom doesn’t make it any better. She always refers to me as lazy, like my dad. He’s not the greatest but at least he supports me to some extent I guess. All I’ve ever wanted was to be understood, listened too. But I could never get the simplest things out of people. The ones who are supposed to love me and be there for me. I think this community is helping me. But then again I still feel like something is wrong. Maybe I expected too much. I always expect others to see my point of view. But I supposed I’ve been too optimistic with people. I really hope I can find some time for myself to reevaluate my mental stability and get checked out by a licensed professional, instead of having to deal with it myself. Maybe I’ll even get a girlfriend and settle down in a home fit for two people, or even have kids. Probably not through I’m not really fond of kids haha. If I find the right girl, I’ll decide then.
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Feeling Pathetic…
S1nful_Sa1nt, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Depression, Grief, PTSD, 2
So this is my 3rd blog & I'm feeling rather welcome here on DT, so thanx to everyone that...
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Sorry for my absence
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I am sorry that i have not visited the site for a while. I have had a rough time...
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Sincerely, Scarweee
scarwheee, , Depression, LGBT, Anxiety, Career, Child, Depression, Questions, Relationships, Sex Therapy, 2
First I would just like to say Hi to whoever might be reading this. I hope you are doing...
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Starpixie831, , Depression, Personality Disorder, Relationships, 0
So yesterday – I finally put my foot down and decided enough, was enough. I wasn’t going to take...
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I just… don't know
MForeverChained, , Depression, Depression, Weight Loss, 0
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Just need to vent
Bec20, , Anxiety, Anxiety, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, 0
I've been awake almost all night worrying and feeling sick and shakey about a couple of things. Firstly, my...
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Last night
sadjac, , Depression, Questions, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, 0
I appologise to anyone that I talked to last night. As you might have been aware, I was...
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Feel Shitty? Go for a walk
That Anxious Dude, , Anxiety, Wellness Tips, Anxiety, Child, Self Esteem, 0
Yes, I know what you’re thinking, you’re not 80 years old, so you’re most definitely not going to go...
Hi Toby, in my experience’s Ive found that I get more out of a conversation / relationship when I am up front about what I am looking for. Hopefully, If they are not able to help you (the way you think you need help) they will know of someone who can. I know it can be hard to open up and share personal thoughts or concerns, but the more you can honestly talk about, the better help you may get..
Sending hope and hugs, Iris