Now I hope all read this without judging me. This may be too deep for some. Hell its too deep for me. Maybe its all bull but maybe its not. All I know is I am a human being and Im suffering. I dont know why but I just want to vent and say what I really think anxiety is. I have many years experience fighting anxiety and panic. I am still fighting and still searching. Ive tried Panic Away and Linden Method and all these things that help somewhat but it is always still there. I believe a law is written in every human creature. I believe this is morality. Whether we believe in God or not we have to abide by some law. I believe every individual born on this earth has a law etched in their heart. I believe I have broken this law intentionally many times since my youth. I believe I created a conflict between myself and this law. The problem lies with my self centered belief that deep down inside I have yet to have forgiven myself for conflicting with this law. I know I have sinned and I also know I have repented and changed my life. I am no longer the immoral man I once was. But yet something still remains. These memories of my past or this well lubed machine of anxiety of these past conflicts. I have classically conditioned myself to respond with anxiety in any conflict now. It goes back to the law I was breaking. I believe that when I broke these laws of morality within myself I was allowing myself to become irrational and conditioned into the irrational. Even though I have changed my life the irrational memory of myself still remains in my mind and body. My soul (or who I am) now realizes who my enemy is. It is that voice that caused me to break the morality of the law inside me. This voice has established its roots and does not want to leave easily. This is my conflict. This is my war.  This is my anxiety. Anxiety is a demon. I bind this demon to silence and inactivity in Jesus Christs name and cast him into the deep recesses of hell for all eternity.  May God have mercy on my soul.