Now I hope all read this without judging me. This may be too deep for some. Hell its too deep for me. Maybe its all bull but maybe its not. All I know is I am a human being and Im suffering. I dont know why but I just want to vent and say what I really think anxiety is. I have many years experience fighting anxiety and panic. I am still fighting and still searching. Ive tried Panic Away and Linden Method and all these things that help somewhat but it is always still there. I believe a law is written in every human creature. I believe this is morality. Whether we believe in God or not we have to abide by some law. I believe every individual born on this earth has a law etched in their heart. I believe I have broken this law intentionally many times since my youth. I believe I created a conflict between myself and this law. The problem lies with my self centered belief that deep down inside I have yet to have forgiven myself for conflicting with this law. I know I have sinned and I also know I have repented and changed my life. I am no longer the immoral man I once was. But yet something still remains. These memories of my past or this well lubed machine of anxiety of these past conflicts. I have classically conditioned myself to respond with anxiety in any conflict now. It goes back to the law I was breaking. I believe that when I broke these laws of morality within myself I was allowing myself to become irrational and conditioned into the irrational. Even though I have changed my life the irrational memory of myself still remains in my mind and body. My soul (or who I am) now realizes who my enemy is. It is that voice that caused me to break the morality of the law inside me. This voice has established its roots and does not want to leave easily. This is my conflict. This is my war.  This is my anxiety. Anxiety is a demon. I bind this demon to silence and inactivity in Jesus Christs name and cast him into the deep recesses of hell for all eternity.  May God have mercy on my soul.

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  1. chrish 10 years ago

    Beautiful, especially the ending \”This voice has established its roots and does not want to leave easily. This is my conflict. This is my war. This is my anxiety. Anxiety is a demon. I bind this demon to silence and inactivity in Jesus Christs name and cast him into the deep recesses of hell for all eternity. May God have mercy on my soul.\”
    Very wise and helpful, I believe this too.

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  2. AnxietyUK 10 years ago

    veritas good words bro , i get it , i\'ll never give the fight up……………

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  3. veritas144k 10 years ago

    For we know that the law is spiritual. But I am carnal, sold under sin. For that which I work, I understand not. For I do not that good which I will, but the evil which I hate, that I do. If then I do that which I will not, I consent to the law, that it is good. Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that there dwells not in me, that is to say, in my flesh, that which is good. For to will is present with me, but to accomplish that which is good, I find not.For the good which I will, I do not,but the evil which I will not, that I do.

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  4. GabZ 10 years ago

    Forgive yourself man… God will have forgiven you already.. =)

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  5. AmyMichelle 10 years ago

    This is deep, and I love it:)). It could well be a law we
    all broke and somehow we are being condemned for it.
    You gave us somthing to realy think about.

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  6. veritas144k 10 years ago

    Maybe not condemned but allowed to suffer for our transformation into a new creature. We are given a gift of
    anxiety to see ourselves for what we are. A creature made to the image and \”likeness\” of God. We are made in the image of God but not yet the \”likeness\”. This voice I speak of is the evil one who has control over all flesh. As we are born into the Spirit overcoming the flesh this evil one holds on and tries to make us condemn our Creator for our suffering. Tries in our case with \”Anxiety\” to give up hope. But we hold fast and carry our cross for the sake of our salvation. But not without reward. For this mortal shall put on immortality. O death where is thy victory, O death where is thy sting! This is my belief!

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  7. donecaring 5 years ago

    God has forgiven you, the minute you asked for forgiveness it was a done deal!! The Bible says that it is as if it never happened, satan is another matter. Ask God to cast him from you, when you have these thoughts demand that satan leave your mind. he has no dominion over a follower of Jesus Christ.
    Remind yourself of your changed life, and realize that you are a new person, with no connection to your past sins. God loves you, and so do I.

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