I have been diagnosed with bipolar depression disorder and it sucks because my depression only gets worse and now it feels like a second personality that has take complete control over me and I don’t know what to do but I do talk to people and I write how I am feeling and it helps me because then when I do that I feel like I am slowly taking back control over me and it feels nice and it’s nice to have someone to talk to or just to write it down and no I usually don’t tell people that I have bipolar depression disorder because everyone knows it’s a chronic mental illness and when they find out they act different and ask if I am okay or if I need someone to talk to but I also don’t tell people because when I do tell people then it because real and people get hurt because when I get depressed I push people away but like I said it’s nice to be able to talk to someone and it’s nice to be able sit in my room in peace and quite and writ how I am feeling because then otherwise I keep it all bottled up inside and when that bottle explodes I lose control my depression gets worse and when my depression gets worse my arm gets worse and it’s scary but being able to talk to someone or write has helped me a lot and I am forever grateful to thoes who have helped me and I am grateful to those who have given me notebooks to write down how I am feeling it’s nice to know someone cares but what hurts the most is when people act different once they find out that I have bipolar depression disorder.