I heard about this forum today in group therapy(which I failed at) and thought I would try to say the quiet things out loud. I have bipolar 2 disorder and it is no longer under control. I started an IOP and after 3 sessions got moved to PHP. I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to keep fighting with myself and keep having to try every day to get up and be a functional person. I don’t even care if I wake up in the morning. It seems as though none of it makes a difference. The counselors tell me that there is a way out and I just need to keep trying to find it. That eventually I will. That eventually I can help myself be better. But I don’t want to try anymore. I’m tired.