Disease or not a disease?

 The debate as to weather this addiction is a disease or not has been going on for some time. It probably will go on for some time to come. Me I agree that it is but that’s me. Today I saw a man celebrate 34 year of recovery. Old time views but that doesn’t matter either. He made a lot of good points about this not being a disease. He said that his cancer is a disease that he wished ho could go to a meeting for to stop it from killing him but he can’t. He had no choice as to weather it would kill him someday. I totally understood. He said that once we get clean it’s a choice to use again. I agree with him on that one. I though that man has been making bad choices concerning his physical, mental and spiritual health since the beginning of time. I don’t think that will change anytime soon. Is that a disease or just being perfectly human as I like to say. I can think this one question into a days worth of a wasted of time. (Obsessive again) The saying “Keep it Simple Stupid” comes to mind in this situation. I know that I have an obsessive and compulsive personality. I know that if I chose to take just one that my ability to just stop is non-existent. If I stay clean today – at the end of the day when I do my tenth step I won’t care if I have a disease or not. I’ll just be grateful that I didn’t use. If I do use and die and my wife and children are standing at my grave. I don’t think that they will really care what killed me. A disease or a bad choice I’ll be gone. So I’ll keep it simple. The trick is to learn to accept the choices I make and if they were bad ones try not to make them again (if I get the chance). Disease or not?  JUST DON’T USE – NO MATTER WHAT.