I believe that dreams hides your most deepiest desires, biggest fears, happy and saddiest moments. It sometimes plays out weird but the cord the messages will tell you what is going on in your life. For examples for about a week straight I dreamt of nothing but ants. I looked up the meaning of dream and dreaming about ants meants two things 1) its means that your frustrtated or mad 2) its mean that you will be making more money in the future. In this case both things were true, I was frustrated in my current employment and I needed to leave which I did months later and because of that decision I would be making way more money. I am currently happy in my new position and I love what I am doing. But back to my dream this morning I had a dream about one person I have never met in my life but who still hold a major void and impact in my life. My father in the dream he was, it was a nice contrast to actually have a father daugther relationship. I was invited to his house and I had a little sister. I even wanted to go back to school so I get my master's degree just to have him be apart of my graduation which he missed when I graduated from high school and college. I dawned on my his is the originator of my biggest and only insecurity. The idea that I am not good enough and it is apparent because even a fetcus or an infant I don't know when he left butbegin that small that innocent and he chooses completely walk away without regards. It funny has things affect us without us even knowing and it took my dream to realize where that insecurity comes from. I always thought it was my ex who started it but its not true he only enhanced it but that is another blog. I am wondering how I can overcome my insecurity. I often wonder if my meeting my father and showing him how well I have done in my life maybe that would make me feel better but than again why is it that I need validation from a man I don't even know and by a man who chose to leave me. I will continue to ponder this and if there is any advise I would be willing to hear it!!