So this week wasn’t bad, but wasn’t good either exactly.
So Monday was a day for sure. I was feeling a lot better than I was Friday. I spent the whole weekend reading and just resetting my brain. But the kids were just trying to fight each other and it definitely took a toll on me. My anxiety was so high and it was just not a good day.
Tuesday was the 4th so we watched fireworks and I swam the whole day. It help take my mind off of things.
Wednesday was a lot of fun. Like a lot of fun. It was field day for the program and I was stationed to give kids Popsicles and they got to play on the playground. It was a great day and I got to spend it with one of my friends.
Thursday I made some big decisions. I texted my ex from my mom’s phone because I needed to get some things off my chest. I needed to apologize for a lot of things. I messed up big time with him and he was, and is, my favorite person and I still love him so so much.
Friday was okey. Waves of sadness and high anxiety levels but overall it was okey.
Hope you all had a good week!
I am so glad that your week was not as bad. Why did you have to use your mom’s phone to text your ex? Do you not have his number in your phone? I’m sorry your Friday was not so great. What was making your anxiety to high and making you sad?
So I used my moms phone because his number is blocked on my phone because all my parents have a program on my phone and have blocked all of my friends. I told my mom I needed to apologize and she let me. This was the only time she let me. Some people weren’t being the best to me and I hate confrontation so I dealt with it in my head and it was a lot.
That makes sense. Why do they have all of your friends blocked? That seems a bit controlling. What people weren’t being the beat to you? Your friends? Is that why they are all blocked, to give you a break?
They didn’t like how my friends acted, similar to me. At the program people aren’t being the best. That was confusing, sorry.