Thank you to the blogger who suggested to develop a phobia of OCD, interessting, this is now definetly included in my arsenal of defence from OCD attacks.

I'm struggling every single seond with ocd. There isn't any time in between bouts. If my body isn't in OCD action my mind is. I despise this desease. It`s part of who i am, for one, too sensitive, two, too observant, three, self convicing. I don`t want to loose these attributes but it seems the only time I`m not OCD is when I don`t care about nothig. I don`t want that either. Do I really have to face my greatests fears so often? Is this everyone`s journey in life in one form or another?

the song Drive by Incubus is one of my favorite songs and i only just put together that the lyrics are related to my OCD

Sometimes I feel the fear of the uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer

It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh
It's driven me before, and it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around
Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

Would you choose water over wine… hold the wheel and drive?

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there