Feeling a little depressed yesterday and today. Just wishing there would be some positive change in my life. Mainly getting a bit nervous about not finding a job yet. Money is tight and for some reason I spend like I have a ton of it. I realized today that I will have to be late on rent this month which is totally irresponsible of me and I am feeling nervous about it. I know I could always borrow from family but it's my fault I overspent on frivolous stuff. What does that say about me? I should know better. GRR. Now I just feel frustrated.