Do you know how many times I have been going to write a blog? The number is so big it doesn’t even exist. My last blog was in October of 2008. Three months ago! I sit at the computer constantly and open up OCDTribe and even the blog page and then it just sits there until I’m finished at the computer and I close it down. I think of things to type while I’m at the computer, but they never seem to get onto the screen. Funny isn’t it?!?!
I’ve started a summer job. Well, it will carry on through the year, but I started yesterday. I’m a Daycare care person and I work with myself!! I had so much fun and was on the go so much that I had 11 hours sleep last night!! I need to get my butt into gear though because I’m also studying over summer and I need to get my dancing letters out for 2009 classes.
THINGS ARE GOING SO FAST!!
OCD wise…I haven’t given it much thought. I plod along everyday and just live. I’m walking every morning and I can not tell you how much it has changed me. I mean I’m one of those people that wake up in the morning and start bargining with myself…’I can’t be bothered going walking today so I’ll do double tomorrow’…the next day ‘I don’t wanna go walking..I’ll do triple tomorrow’…the next day ‘look I’m no good at this so I’ll just blame it on genes and eat whatever I want and sit on my fat ass’….see a pattern? I have been very good though. I can see the good it is doing me and now I wake up thinking ‘I can’t be bothered, but remember that great feeling you got yesterday after your walk?…I’m up!!’
So, I’m not looking down my dark hole that I always seem to. I’m feeling great!! I’m ready to start looking for that relationship I really want and I feel like I’m slightly in control!!
Well everyone, I was just looking through my ‘OCD file’ on my computer at all the dark ‘I’m never going to live through this’ poems and here is one, although I don’t feel like this anymore…or now!! Enjoy…
SMILE…Tomorrow is a new day!! Hales