for the FIRST time since we started this whole ordeal with custody i am at ease……

we have been cleaning our home from TOP TO BOTTOM since i found out that ACS would be coming to our home to interview and investigate our living situation….. we hadn't known what day the worker was going to pop up so we just kept our house tidy in anticipation for her arrival…..

our worker called me last week and told me that she would be stopping by on the 7th (today)…this had me on pins and needles simply because Damein has been doing his BEST to come out on top….that IN ITSELF has had me STRESSED…..he has on NUMEROUS occasions shown HIS TRUE COLORS!!!! and how DECEPTIVE he can and is…..

unfortunately yesterday at my son's little league game Damein ONCE AGAIN tried to COCK BLOCK…..he told me that he had spoken to the worker and informed her that since the boys LIVE WITH HIM she should be able to see them at HIS HOME…..he DIDNT want the boys to miss out on school….(OH HOW CONSIDERATE OF HIM!!!!)

well what he DIDNT UNDERSTAND was that i was the first person she spoke with and got HIS number from me….so in HIS CLEVERNESS he decided he would have her appear FIRST at his home…..so in telling me yesterday that he spoke to her and that the boys didnt need to be taken out of school he thought he had ONE UP ON ME…….but of course i made sure to call the ACS worker to confirm FOR MYSELF THAT THE BOYS WERENT NEEDED IN MY HOME!!! i take what damein says to me with a GRAIN OF SALT!!! HE CLEARLY CANNOT BE TRUSTED!!!

so this morning i spoke with our worker and she told me that when she spoke with damein he sounded ANGRY and he wanted HER to UNDERSTAND that the boys will be HOME with HIM!!! she got the impression from him that he was up to something…..she said that she had been reading up on our case file and noticed the "tit or tat" that has been going on and is AWARE of his COUNTER ACTIONS……

when she arrived at our home we sat down and spoke about the children she offered her insight on how she VIEWED damein to be……and THANK YOU JESUS!! she saw EXACTLY WHAT I MEANT BY HIM BEING INTIMIDATING, CONTROLLING, AND HIS DEMENOUR TO BE STRONG!!! she said that upon first glance there was GENUINE FEAR!!! and she didn't feel comfortable UNTIL she saw the boys in the same room!!!!

she mentioned that when she spoke with the boys individually (AWAY FROM DAMEIN) that she got A CLEAR UNDERSTANDING of what THEY WANTED!!! she mentioned that they each EXPRESSED THEIR LOVE FOR LEIGH!!!

she ALSO mentioned that she can CLEARLY SEE that WE have our boys BEST INTERESTS in mind…..

do you HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT THAT MEANS TO ME????? PEOPLE ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN CAN SEE THROUGH HIS BULLSHIT!!!!

I HAVE TO THANK GOD FOR HOLDING ME CLOSE THROUGH ALL OF THIS!!! FOR SHOWING ME THAT THROUGH FAITH ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!! AND HE WILL BRING US THROUGH THIS!!!

i leave this in HIS HANDS, and WILL CONTINUE TO PRAISE HIM!!! for all that HE has brought this family through!!!!

my heart is FIANLLY at ease…..LET THE CARDS FALL WHERE THEY MAY!!!!